I was born with a severe hearing
problem. My daily life was surrounded by
silence. Whenever people needed to
communicate with me, they would have to shout, make gestures or write messages on
a pad. A series of diagnostic hearing
tests revealed that my left ear was lacking 95 percent of its hearing ability,
while my right ear was lacking 85 percent.
Although I tried using hearing aids to catch people’s conversation, to
my disappointment, they didn’t help at all; I still couldn’t distinguish a word
of what anyone was talking about!
Though I wasn’t born to a rich
family, my father would take me to various doctors to search for a cure. Once, for diagnostic purposes, my entire body
was inserted with countless needles from head to toe. I didn’t cry at all, and even the doctor was impressed
by my calmness and courage. He encouraged my cooperation by giving me a “thumbs
up” sign. Unfortunately, the time and
money spent did not seem to improve my hearing at all. Worse yet, it triggered another
problem - speech difficulty.
The same year, when I was 5, I
really wanted to play with my peers. One
day a child teased me by calling me “ Dumb”. Naively, I learned to say “dumb” by copying his lip movements,
without knowing what the word meant. Afterwards,
I ran to my father and practiced saying “dumb” repeatedly to him in
excitement. Hearing this, he was dismayed
and very hurt.
Because of my physical disability,
I encountered other difficult situations. I remember sitting in the classroom and being
unable to make out what the teacher was saying. I wrote on a piece of paper to
my classmate for help, but passing this note to him disturbed my teacher. She thought I was being mischievous and
punished me, making me feel really embarrassed.
Another serious incident occurred when
my parents were not home; a group of gangsters vandalized our house. They broke our front door with stones and
also threw away my shoes while mocking me for being disabled. I felt so upset
about the fact that I couldn’t hear and speak. Must physically handicapped
people always be despised and harassed?
In the Spring of 1983, the Lord Jesus
was mentioned to me the first time during a visit from my cousin. She told me she was a Christian and that Jesus
is the greatest physician. At the time I
didn’t believe in Jesus at all in my heart.
One Sabbath Day my cousin called a
cab and took us to her church. Resistant
to the unfamiliar church environment, I looked down all the time during the
sermon and bible study. At first, I was neither convinced
of Jesus’ love nor His existence. During
prayer, my cousin asked me to clasp my hands and kneel down to pray. I didn’t know what to say in my prayer so I
looked at others, and became shocked at the way they prayed. Why was everyone shaking their bodies? Right
at that moment, I
felt a gentle breeze sweep by. It
terrified me because I thought it was the spirit of a ghost, and I felt like
running away right then and there. My
cousin came to the rescue and said “ Don’t be nervous,
Jesus loves you”. During break, some
church members came to chat with me. I
didn’t talk much because I didn’t understand what they were talking about, and
I still had difficulty in speaking. We
had bible study that afternoon with the subject of “On the Way to Eternity”.
When we returned home,
I felt at peace, and felt a warmth in my heart.
Several days later, my cousin said good-bye and left for her home. Miraculously, I felt anxious to go back to
church, and wanted to learn more about God.
One Sabbath when I knelt down in
front during prayer time, I saw a shining, bright light in front of me. Seeing this, I felt so joyful and peaceful in
heart. Thanks to the Lord, He watched
and cared for me all the time. Without
his guidance, I couldn’t have passed my high school education.
I was baptized on May 16, 1987
during the Spring Spiritual Convocation in Chung-LiChurch. When the sister before me was being baptized,
I saw the water around her turn into red blood. Witnessing the Lord’s blood, I
felt extremely touched. When I got up
from the water after being baptized, a gust of air popped up from my ears. A couple days later, I realized I could utter
clearer words; I haven’t stuttered ever since.
Moreover, wearing a hearing aid, my hearing gradually improved. Thanks to God, He is truly a powerful
On October 7th 1990, I was filled with the Holy
Spirit during a Fall Spiritual Convocation.
In my dream that same night, I saw a gigantic circle shining brightly with
a cross in the center of the circle. The
Lord Jesus was standing by the cross; I recall His face was so kind and
gentle. I shouted out in excitement and
awoke, moved to tears upon seeing His face in my dream. God’s love is so great it is impossible to
repay Him, and knowing that God is with me makes me so joyful!
I really thank my cousin introducing
me to True Jesus Church. With God’s
blessing, I got married and now have children.
My husband is also a deaf and mute, and a believer of Jesus Christ. With faith, we pray for His continuous mercy
and blessings, and also testify of God’s grace while always listening to His