ARTransformed By The SpiritHave you ever felt lost and out of control in your life? Listen to the voice of God and seek after His Holy Spirit. For it will empower you to overcome sin and renew your faith in Him.We have to recognize that we are constantly fighting a spiritual war. If we are not equipped with the power of the Holy Spirit, it is very difficult for us to overcome our weaknesses and the temptation of Satan. In this testimony, a brother shares how receiving the Holy Spirit renewed his life and brought him closer to the mercy, grace, and most of all, the love of Christ Himself.
In the struggle between good and evil, I've come to realize that through
prayer and God's grace, we can overcome the world. I truly thank the Lord for
His guidance in my life. He has really opened my eyes to His miraculous ways. I'd
like to share my testimony to help others overcome their own struggles with good
Fighting Sin without Spiritual Power
For the past few months, I've been trying to draw myself closer to God. I
would tell myself to come to service even though I did not feel like it. I read
the Bible and other church publications. I would often meditate on God and ask
Him to forgive my sins and give me more faith.
Throughout this time, I came to realize how spiritually weak I was, and that
I sinned whenever I went out with my worldly friends. Even though I resisted
temptation and did not go out with them, I knew I was still weak in faith.
One night, I succumbed and went out with my worldly friends but, thank God,
He kept me from sinning against Him. When I arrived home in the early morning
hours, I felt a deep sense of emptiness.
As I got out of the car and was about to open the door to my house, part of
me was reluctant to go in. For some unknown reason, I was compelled to go to
When I arrived at church, I went up to the second floor, above the chapel. As
I sat there, I thought about all the sins of my life.
Encouraged by the Love of a Sister
While I was thinking about the things I had done a few hours earlier, I heard
the sound of prayer coming from the chapel. I went to see who it was and there I
saw a sister praying.
You see, awhile back, she encouraged me to pray for the Holy Spirit. She even
offered to pray with me, saying that she came to church every day at eight in
the morning to pray. I said I might join her, but I never intended on doing so.
When I saw her praying there, I felt ashamed for not joining her. I knew that
she had probably seen my car in the church parking lot and would've wanted me to
pray with her. So I went and joined her.
As I knelt down in prayer, I was moved to tears. I started to repent of all
my sins and asked God to forgive me. I made a resolution to stay at church that
day until I received the Holy Spirit. But realizing there was a truth seekers'
bible study that morning, I left church for home at 10 am.
Around noontime, before I was about to go to sleep, I felt compelled to write
down all the shortcomings I wanted to get rid of. I had this burning desire to
change myself, so I wrote down my weaknesses: PRIDE, SELFISHNESS, UNKINDNESS,
IMPATIENCE, and LAZINESS.
Lying there on my bed, I pondered over how I needed to be more at peace and
to have more love towards church members. Suddenly, I had an overriding urge to
get up and pray. For reasons I can't explain, I immediately felt the need for
God, so I got up and started to pray.
As soon as I knelt down, tears poured down my face. I felt a deep sense of
sorrow and pain within as I thought about my life of sin up to that point. I am
not the type of person that cries often but during that prayer I cried like a
Receiving the Holy Spirit
During that prayer, my "Hallelujah's" were getting louder, and I began to
wonder whether I was disturbing my neighbors.
At the same time, I started to think about King David. Despite being a king,
David was unashamed to offer praise to God in front of others. Even though he
seemed very foolish to the people, he humbled himself before God and disregarded
what others thought about him.
Just then, I realized how I cared too much about what people thought about
me. What's truly important is what God thought about me. So I determined to
disregard man's acceptance and seek after God fully in prayer.
Once I disregarded my "face" and focused on God, my hands began to tingle and
my arms began to shake. But I started to doubt if this was the Holy Spirit or
not. I thought, "Why would God still love and forgive a sinner like me?"
Whenever I doubted, the Holy Spirit's movement went away and I would ask God
for more faith and the strength to not doubt Him. I truly felt like I was in a
spiritual tug-o-war. As I struggled with my faith, I also asked God to help me
and forgive me.
Suddenly I felt my hands shake. There was tingling and heat on my head. I
began speaking in tongues. God wanted me to have complete faith in Him; without
any form of doubt.
In that prayer, I felt as if I was nothing and wondered why I was so proud
before. I used to think it was okay to be proud, as long as I did not act proud.
Now, I understand that God does not like any form of pride within our hearts.
I had to bow and worship God with my face to the ground because I couldn't
face Him directly. I was filled with so much joy because God still loved a great
sinner. I asked God to never let me forget my iniquities and to always let me
remember His wonderful grace.
I can't explain it, but I truly grasped the full height, depth, width, and
length of God's great love. How great and awesome is God!
In the past, I often heard the words of the Bible, but I never felt like I
understood or truly grasped them until I experienced God for myself. He opened
up my spiritual eyesight and many things in the Bible suddenly made sense and
came alive for me. It became very clear to me that nothing in this world is more
important than God.
The Power of Prayer
I truly feel that every prayer to God, every thought of Him, and every
utterance of "Hallelujah" add up. As long as we put forth the effort, He will
see our heart and help us through our dark days. "Draw near to God and He will
draw near to you" (Jas 4:8).
Before I received the Holy Spirit, I had been trying for months to be good.
But at the lowest point of my spiritual life, I felt like God uplifted me.
I used to constantly think about my stock investments, driving a nice car,
and getting married. When I received the Holy Spirit, all the things of this
world became unimportant to me.
All I want to do now is to abide in God's will. I know it will be a constant
struggle, for there is a constant spiritual warfare within us. I pray that God
will protect me from returning to my life of sin, and will remind me of His
wonderful mercy and grace.
Through my experience, I hope to encourage you that experiencing God in
prayer will spiritually empower you in your Christian walk. It will uplift your
spiritual life and renew your faith in Him. May all the praise be given to our
merciful and loving God. Amen.