find my faith likened to that of a yo-yo. Like a yo-yo, my faith springs up and
down but more often than not, is left at its lowest point, when the player has lost control.
I feel that my faith has fallen to an all-time low. My prayers have become
shorter and have lacked depth. Moreover, they have become more of a ritual than
a necessity to life. Sometimes at church, I feel that I am so near God, yet my
heart is so far from Him.
realized how much living away from home would change me. I never realized how
difficult it is to be a student nor how difficult it
is to maintain one’s faith. And I never realized how low one’s faith can get
when we begin to lose track of it.
living at home, you could say that I had a stable faith, though it was far from
being perfect. During those times my relationship with God was like that of a
mother and her child: it was intimate, close and loving. God was my constant
all-time companion. I could never understand those who had to think twice
about attending fellowships held during the week. To me these services were an
opportunity for us to draw nearer to God; they were an opportune time for us to
understand Him and ourselves more deeply. Surely everybody wanted to
understand God more deeply?
believed that if you gave your time up to God, then He would surely bless you.
If only I could think in this way now. Sadly to say, I now find myself in the
situation where I am struggling within, undecided whether to attend Bible
studies. As course work piled high and new friends were made, I began to lose
sight of the real meaning of my existence. I became so caught up with my studies
that my prayers became shorter and my Bible readings were done in a haphazard
manner. This in turn led to my faith falling to an all-time low.
I find it
so difficult to pull myself up again. However, I truly thank God for loving me.
During my times of weakness, He has strengthened me.
In my times of sorrow He has comforted me. And when I have strayed far from
Him, He has kindly followed me so that I may turn back to His loving arms. I
feel so unworthy of His love!
Sabbath, a brother delivered a sermon on the temptation of Christ. When he was
talking about the devil leading Jesus up the mountain, he said, “It is
important to go back to the word of God, to examine ourselves, to see where we
have gone wrong.” To see where we have gone wrong. These few words hit me and I
frantically began to search myself, to see where I had gone wrong. When did my
faith start to decline? Why did it decline? Why had I been so lax in my faith?
Why had I gone astray? These questions continuously ran through my mind.
second temptation of Christ, Jesus was led by the devil through a series of
stages. Firstly, he was taken up to the highest pinnacle of the mountain, then
He was shown the world and lastly, he was told to bow down to worship the
devil. Our journey of faith can also be seen in various stages; faith is
something which is built up gradually, and not something which is acquired
overnight. Faith requires time to grow and to develop. It has to be shaped and
molded before it can be perfected. In the same manner, the devil does not lure
us away from Christ instantly - it is a gradual process. When our faith
slackens, it does so progressively. We must therefore seize hold of it before
it slips slowly and quietly away from us.
those living away from home have probably came to realize, maintaining one’s
faith is not easy. But we should remember that this period of ‘independence’
is a time when our loyalty in God is tested. It is an opportunity for us to
re-establish our relationship with Him; a time when we begin to understand
ourselves and Christ. During this time we seek to a high level of spirituality
and we must remain alert at all times. Do not lose control of your faith and
let it dangle at the end of a string. Keep the yo-yo firmly in your grasp. As a
always easy to fight the good fight,
But it is always
And it is always right.”
faith continue to grow in Jesus Christ, as it becomes stronger and more mature
as days go by.