Teach Me Your Way
The night is still, but I am
allowed no sleep. The day's trauma is
still with me, for I have failed. Lord,
I know that there is a purpose behind everything you do (Rom 8:28), but grant
me the wisdom to understand and accept your will. As the wise Solomon said, "In the day of
prosperity, be joyful, and in the day of adversity consider; God has made the
one as well as the other" (Ecc 7:14).
Jesus said not to be anxious over
daily living, and that if I seek His kingdom and
righteousness, He will provide for me.
Am I being selfish, to be so disappointed by my own failures, so worried
over my own future?
There must be a special reason for
God's choosing and saving me from a life of emptiness to one of hope. Countless others wait for His calling. The commission of the Lord is to preach the
gospel of eternal life to all people, but I have always been busy in the
pursuit of my own goals. Maybe God has shown me pain and distress to remind me
of that commission.
Lord, I am unworthy. Now I understand you a little more, and how
you feel when I sin and turn against you.
You were mocked, spat on, scourged, and nailed on the cross. How much pain you suffered for me! How many times have I sinned and gone astray,
rejecting your love? Looking sadly down
at me, you are still able to say, "I have loved you with an everlasting
love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you" (.Jer 31:3). Forgive
Though the apostle Paul suffered
continuously for the sake of the gospel, he always encouraged the believers to
rejoice in all things. He told the Philippians, "For I have learned, in
whatever state I am, to be content, I know how to be abased, and I know how to
abound; in any and all circumstances I have learned the secret of facing plenty
and longer, abundance and want. I can do
all things in him who strengthens me" (Php
4:11-13). In my afflictions, I see the
significance of his exhortation all the more clearly. As long as I continue to place my trust in
Jesus, His providential care will be with me.
I need not doubt Him anymore, for He says, "... my thoughts are not
your thoughts, neither your ways my ways.
As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than
your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts" (Is 55:8-9).
The long, dark night is over, and
the dawn is breaking. in my weakness, I turned to my
Heavenly Father, who strengthened me. In
my emptiness and despair, I trusted in Him, and lie lifted my burden from me,
showing me His way.
"And though the Lord give
you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, yet your teacher will
not hide himself anymore, but your eyes shall see your teacher. And your ears shall hear a word behind you,
saying, "This is the way, walk in it"' (Is 30:20, 21).