The Diary of Vexed Lot
Adapted from a series of letters received from an
7June 1993, Monday
It’s black Monday again! Business
is brisk as usual and Boss has been yelling the whole day. It’s ironic that
instead of bringing more happiness, more business means more frustration,
stress and shouting.
Because worries and talks about
nothing but business. He often tells me to make sure that the shop is “nice and
presentable” and that it is our “rice bowl”. His hobby and past-time one can
say, is WORRYING, FRETTING and GRUMBLING.
Because he speaks very little
English and knows nothing about accounting, his main worry is TAXES. He has
always been telling me to be “careful” with the accounts, because many
businesses have been fined for being “naughty”. I once had a conversation with
a friend and he said that if the Tax Man is investigating any business, it is
not a question of whether you get fined, but how much. He also said that if
anyone disputes an appeal against the decision, he’s in big trouble. I asked
him what he meant. He said that if you dispute the figure, they will come sit with you at your business (during opening hours, of
course!). Very few are therefore brave enough to challenge the Tax Man.
I often think that if that Tax Man
comes for tea, I will invite him to eat fried rice with me. If he does not come
I will drag him in! In fact he can sit with me for a month! I will prove to him
that my accounts are at least 99% accurate and true, sometimes overtrue! I know no one can be 100% perfect, but one should
be willing and pray that he can be perfected. The Lord is coming soon. He will
reward with TRUE LUXURY and ETERNAL LIFE. We should not boast in our wealth or
our takings. If we boast, we boast in the truth only. The Lord is perfect and
holy. We strive to be the same.
8 June 1993, Tuesday
Went bowling today with cousins
and friends. I noticed that most of them had personal bowling shoes and bowling
balls. What really “bowled me over” was this little packet of white powder they
used to make the floor less slippery. Such serious attitude! Great enthusiasm
and eagerness indeed!
Often when we attend church, we
arrive just on time or a little late. Sometimes we get tired of doing church
work. Whatever happened to the enthusiasm at the bowling alley? Where is our
eagerness to serve God?
9 June 1993, Wednesday
Read something on ex-communication
today. I think it is a serious matter worth much thinking about.
This subject is rarely mentioned
in sermons. It’s one of the most sensitive, embarrassing and delicate matters.
Mention the word and it will send shudders down the spine. Few would want to
explore such a topic. Nevertheless, sooner or later, this serious matter must
In the past, most of the ex-communications
in the True Jesus Church were due to adultery and sexual immorality. We have
heard from sermons that if a believer commits adultery he commits a deadly sin
and should be expelled. This is no doubt true (1 Cor 5:1-3, 13). But what if a
believer from time to time engages in debauchery – drunkenness and immoral
pleasures? (1 Cor 5:11) What about swindling (eg. Tax evasion, etc)? (1 Cor
6:9-10). Or greed? (1 Cor 3:5-6). What if a believer causes dissensions? (Prov
6:16-19). What if a believer habitually lies? (Prov 6:16-19) Or gossips? (1 Tim
5:13-15) Or slanders? (1 Cor 3:8). I found other useful bible references:
1 Tim 6:10, II Tim 2:22-23, 3:1-7, 4:3-4
I am led to think about the
adulterous woman in John 8.
Verse 3: “The Scribes and the
Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery, and placing her in
The woman was sexually immoral.
Perhaps she had committed many sexual offences but was not caught till now. Did
she back understanding in God’s law? Could it be that the teachers of the law
rarely spoke about sexual immorality? Or perhaps she was only a part-time
Verse 5: “Now in the law Moses
commanded us to stone such. What do you say about her?” I have no doubt that to
ex-communicate those who have committed mortal sins is a right thing to do, for
the Bible teaches so.
On balance, God extends His
kindness when we sin out of ignorance. But He says “Go and sin no more.” The
great day of judgment is near!
Rom 13:8-14, II Pet 3:3-4, 1 Thess 5:2-3, II
Tess 2:3-4, 9-10
If we refuse to repent, we will ultimately
be cut off (Lk 13:5, Rom 11:22) Do we have any
This is my solemn, contrite prayer
Have mercy on us, O God,
according to Your unfailing love,
According to Your great
compassion blot out our transgressions.
For we know our trespasses and
sins are always before us.
All glory be
unto You, O God. Amen.
10 June 1993, Thursday
We humans are strong creatures
sometimes. Often we are willing to suffer, but unfortunately for the wrong
reasons. For example in our working life, for the sake of money, we are willing
to suffer insults, abuses, mockery, etc.
If we work for others, it may be
difficult to control or limit our working hours, but if we do our own business,
surely we can. But most people slog all their lives to accumulate money which
they do not have much time to enjoy. Work drains their energy, morale and
interest for other things. Yet for the sake of extra income they suffer
unnecessarily. Sometimes I wonder : If the only reward of our tail and
suffering is money, is it worthwhile? Shouldn’t we reserve more of our energy
toward for Jesus willingly? We will then be able to rejoice in our sufferings,
because we know that our reward is true and lasting.
1 Tim 6:10: “For
the love of money is the root of all evils; it is through this craving
that some have wondered away from the faith and pierced their hearts with many
11 June 1993, Friday
Cousin May gave birth to her third
child today. Sadly, the baby’s not normal, just like the rest. Her second child
died when he was barely fine months old. Now she’s got two abnormal children to
take care of. When she heard about the condition of the new-born today, she
kept asking, “Lord, why me?” Yes, why she? No matter what answers we humans
give, none will truly satisfy.
When we suffer, for example illness,
bereavements, we may ask the same question: “Why me?” We know that such
questions cannot be easily answered. But one thing to remember is that we ought
to always rely on God. In our sorrow we must never doubt His love or lose trust
in Him. We should all the more pray for His strengthening.
Thank God May and Eric are believers. There is Someone they can turn to, unlike
unbelievers who would just blame everything on their ill-luck and live in
one thing I’ve learnt is never to take God’s blessings for granted. We seldom
thank God for the good things but always question Him for the bad things.
Though we have no answers to many things we face in life, I know He’s up there,
waiting to tell us, someday.
12 June 1993, Saturday
Although we in the True Jesus
Church may work on the Sabbath Day, I feel we often abuse this liberty. If we
work for a non-member, we may not be able to dictate our working hours, but if
we operate our own business, surely we can control our operating hours. Surely
if we close on Saturday, our income wouldn’t be severely affected. Surely we
can still make enough.
Sometimes, we squeeze a full day’s
work into a Saturday morning and then rush to church. And while at church our
mind is somewhere else.
This weekend, I’m taking a short
break here in the north. The Sabbath service here is at 11am. After the service
everybody rushes off to his respective business. Each time I come here I feel
very disturbed, for nobody takes care of the truthseekers
except a handful of foreign students who have nowhere else to go after service.
Often even these are not enough. Why is business more important than people’s
souls? The foreign students have to leave one day. Who then will take care of
Why the rush on the Sabbath Day of
What do we gain by all this?